Day 10

Day 10: What areas in my life am I holding back from God?

This chapter is a follow up to chapter 9. I did not need much time to consider my answer to this question. It is basically the same as my answer to yesterday’s question. To be quite honest, I’m not sure if there is anything in my life that I don’t hold back from God. Do I believe, yes, do I trust….that’s another story. It’s not that I don’t know God only wants what is best for me , the issue is knowing what I’m supposed to do. Day 10 gives the answer as to why people hold back or rather refuse to surrender to God. The 3 reasons are fear, pride, and confusion.
I have always been the type of person that needs to know things ahead of time…of course so that I can control my surroundings. If I don’t know what’s going on I become anxious. This goes along with my refusal to surrender. I don’t know what God wants from me and therefore I often rely on myself because I know myself and feel that I know what’s best for me. I should know by now that my Creator knows me better than I know myself, He knew me before I even existed.
The fact is I can’t know everything, I’m not God. If I trust Him, and I’ll be better off. I need to learn to let go and stop trying to control my surroundings. This however is easier said than done. I think it’s because I still don’t know enough about God and haven’t studied enough. Once I have done that I will able to accept my limitations and finally be able to let go.