Faults and Weaknesses

Day 35: Am I limiting God's power in my life by trying to hide my weaknesses? What do I need to be honest about in order to help others?

Ok, so I had to take a few minutes to take a hard look at myself and admit to my weaknesses. Some are superficial and physical like the fact that I am not good at any sports, at all. Others are real weaknesses in my personality and I am not sure where the come from. I decided to do what the book says and be open and admit to some of them at least.
1. I have a bad temper, I have no idea why I have limited patience. I am mostly aggravated by other people's stupidity; what most people will let roll off their backs I sometimes harbor.
2. I can't do math...at all. I 've learned to live with it, that's why we have calculators.
3. I attempt to plan every detail of my life. I have to know the beginning and end to something, it might be why I'm so afraid of water, it just seems endless.
4. I am indecisive. I am always afraid of making the wrong decision and ask others to make my decisions for me... usually these are not major decisions.
5. My biggest flaw: I am afraid of failure. I think that if I try something and fail I'll look like an idiot and people will think less of me, mostly I will think less of myself. Yes I know failure is not trying at all but I can't seem to wrap my head around that concept. I have however learned to take more risks.
6. I am not the most open person on the planet. I am very independent almost to a flaw. Yes I'll tell you my opinion on something in a heartbeat but very few people get to know me. I am a private person and I don't like too many people in my life, space, face because I think they may use it against me. Yes I have a wall, and I LIKE IT!
Then again if I was that closed I wouldn't be telling the cyberworld all of this would I?

So there you have it, my flaws and weaknesses. You may look at my list and laugh or think I'm weird and need a shrink but I don't care. I'm just being real about me, you might want to try it and come back to planet earth.

Now as for how this posed be used to help others, I have no idea. If this helps you then great, let me know.

Day 34

Am I usually concerned about being served or serving others?

What kind of question is this? If your'e a good person you like to help others in any way that you can, that doesn't mean that a Christian does not or would like to be helped, taken care of, or served as well. Its about treating others as you want them to treat you. However you don't do things for other people in the hopes of getting something in return.

Day 33 Act Right

Question of the day:Which of the six characteristics of real servants offers the greatest challenges to me?

Before I can answer this question, I suppose I have to explain what these 6 characteristics are. They are as follows:
1. Make yourself available
2. Pay attention to the needs of others
3. Do the best with what you have
4. Do every task with equal dedication
5. Be faithful
6. Maintain a low profile

I just want to quickly address number 6. I can not stand when people do something for others and feel the need to boast about it. It just shows that they are not trying to help others but help themselves to the praise of others and recognition. Stop it! Do things for people because you care not because you want an award. Its one thing to tell other people what you do to get them to join you, its another to boast about how much you donated to a cause.

Enough with my rant, now to answer the question, my biggest challenge is doing the best with what I have. If I can't do something well, I don't feel like doing it at all. It frustrates me, but I try anyway and I suppose that's all that matters. I can't be good at everything, so even though I 've never done something before, if it'll help someone else I'll try it. Just hope it isn't a hot mess.

Day 32

Short and simple: I need to explore my talents and gifts. I 'm going to take some classes to figure out what I like and what I'm interested in. Once I do that, I can know what I can do in church. Period.

Day 31 Gifted

Once again we go into the redundancy of this book. Its time I tap into my gifts and talents and figure out how to use them for good....I'll let you know when I figure it out.

Day 30 Gifts and Heart

Ten days left, hopefully I can keep up the momentum. I know that this weekend is a loss but after that I can keep posting. Day 30 discusses gifts and heart. God gave everyone different gifts to be used and not wasted. He also gives us interests. The question is what am I interested in and good at? I have many interests but i don't see how any of them can be of any use. I like to travel but there is no way I'm going to be a missionary. Lying on the beach can't help save anyone and neither can reading a book. These are my interests. On the other hand I have always had an interests in politics, current events, doing some kind of good for my community. Maybe I'll run for office......
Back to reality, my first step is figuring out what else I like to do. I've decided to do more volunteer work. For at least a month I will volunteer one day every week at a local soup kitchen. If I'm bored, I'll try something like building houses for Habitat.... who knows....

Day 29

Its been quite some time since my last entry, but I'm back. The holidays have caused major delays in writing. Anyway, back to Day 29. It asks what is keeping me from service. The answer is simple. I have NO IDEA, what I'm supposed to be doing. I've tried different things, but in the end I get bored. The time has come to take some time to evaluate what I like to do and how I can use that in service. Maybe I'll do something at a soup kitchen or write a newsletter for a church. I don't know yet. If anyone has ideas (even though no one is even reading) let me know.